Saturday, February 22, 2014

No Longer in Limbo

The mountain in my mind shifted, no longer in limbo
Weight of hope crashing to realization
Gazing down the hill, to the shadows and echoes that comfort
As silent pools now had permission to well
The overflow blurred the future of those city lights
Bright they shone, even from a distance
My experience; also in the future

And who would know the additions to be made?
The skyline glowing and lives changed
All I could think: that this means goodbye

And days earlier, I recalled… that all these moments will be lost
In time
Like tears in rain
But the yearning goes on, as it has since the last visit
In stasis it seems while the flicker proves me wrong
The planes glide down
Soon up, and beyond

Three weeks until from the air, those lights blur again,
No doubt between masked smiles and longing stares.
More missed opportunities to dance in the mind

But this means goodbye, as I’m no longer in limbo.
I’ll continue to wait, and pray that perhaps I’m mistaken.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Ten Things I Miss About Camp


Two months ago, the laughter, tears, relief and solemn realization that summer had ended would beckon a mass exodus from Crofton, Vancouver Island. Two months ago, many of us who served at summer camp would be departing home, or to holiday, to study, to family, to work, to the unknown, and most certainly to a week or more of welcome sleep.

The sober days after the conclusion of camp would prompt a plethora of reflection-driven status’ on Facebook and the like, perhaps in part to bring closure of a special time, or to commence the ‘new chapter’ which awaited.

One month on, I was contemplating what makes camp so special. Two months on, and in the absence of some of the things on the list below, I realized that camp provides a space in which many core human needs may be met.

So, here are ten things I miss about camp:

      1.       Community
      The availability of friends and the ever-present bustle of camp life means that you are never alone if you don't want to be. It’s more difficult to spend time alone than it is to spend time in the presence and company of others. This is often a stark contrast to life if one is not intentionally seeking community.

      2.       Genuine Relationships
      The core craving of our being is to be in genuine relationship with one another. There is nothing more comforting than to confide in a friend who cares for you regardless of anything you say or do, and only such relationships provide the opportunity to be completely yourself – the freedom to be ‘stupid together’ is a special thing.

      3.       Laboring & Working Together
      Laboring and working together forms unity. Teamwork builds camaraderie. Struggling and triumphing together is one of the few ways in which groups of people bond. On an 'individual' scale, shared experience with another provides joint memories and the opportunity for humorous recollection and encouragement of alternative methods.

      4.       Purpose & Mission
      Vision for 'why' one is doing what they’re doing is integral for motivation and attitude. During summer camp, we are continually reminded of our reason for being there. To have reason and purpose empowers, energizes, and when a mission is greater than yourself, you often find strength when you have none left.

      5.       Sacrifice & Investment
      When we sacrifice we 'buy into' an idea, action, relationship or cause. Sacrifice results in a sense of ownership and reminds us that we have value. Though investment may seem hard, it's worthwhile in the long-run. For Christians, being a servant is not an optional extra. It’s an attitude we adopt when we decide to follow Jesus. Being servant-hearted involves both sacrifice and investment - both of which are essentially the same thing.

      6.       Fun
      Summer camps are designed to foster a fun environment. Subconsciously (or not), most of us like making others laugh and enjoy themselves. With the right attitude, we're rewarded with a sense of fulfillment when we produce enjoyment for others – though this ‘reward’ is a by-product and shouldn't be the goal.

      7.       Growth & Discipleship
      The challenge of camp & the roller-coaster that it often becomes either reveals or (re)defines our character. We grow from learning (sometimes from each other, mistakes, shared experience) and while growing pains can hurt, it rewards us as a whole. The opportunity for ‘iron to sharpen iron’ and for mentor-mentee friendships to be formed promotes ongoing growth and development for both campers and staff.

      8.       Natural Beauty
      Countless studies* reveal that being around nature reduces stress. I’d argue further; reflecting on and being within nature prompts within us questions of spirituality as we gaze at a beautiful universe that's much bigger than ourselves. During camp, a chance to hang out in a forest or to admire the picturesque coast is never far away.

      9.       Trust & Respect
      The knowledge that the best interests of everyone is at heart guards us and encourages us to build each other up and affirm one another. At times, this also means respectfully and gently correcting one another.

      10.   Safety
      Safety is last because it’s something so easily overlooked. We take safety for granted until we're in a place we feel threatened, intimidated or in danger. Safety relaxes us physically, comforts us mentally, and creates a place to be open and brutally honest, emotionally and spiritually. Safety enables us to be who we were created to be, without fear of the judgment or persecution of others.


I’m sure I could continue this list with a comical recollection of hilarious things and people that I also miss from summer camp, but I think the above list is sufficient.

The above provides both a picture of camp, and a framework for which we should be living or involved outside of camp.

What’s missing?




*I’d normally cite such studies, but I've forgotten the name of the architecture books and the other reputable online journals/articles I've read. Search Google Scholar (or a library) if you wish.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Glancing Back, Moving Forward

I've often heard people say, “I have no regrets because otherwise I wouldn't be the person I am today”. While I understand the sentiment, I've always hated that quote.

Looking back on my life, I realize how many things I could have done differently and I recognize that there’s always room for improvement.

I’m in a unique time in my life, where I've completed my university study, I’m unemployed, single, and seem to have more time on my hands than I ever have before. This is the first time in eleven years that I've not juggled study, work, multiple sporting teams and church activities.

Naturally, all this extra time provides a unique opportunity – an environment of thinking and reminiscing. More importantly, it’s provided me with the opportunity to re-evaluate all that I've found to be worthwhile in my past as I make decisions in the present.

·         Perhaps the biggest regret I've found through reminiscing is losing sight of the big picture and not spending enough quality time with people.

·         So often we become caught up with what we (mistakenly) deem as important, where in hindsight, we wonder what the big deal was. Just think: catching all 150 Pokémon, the date to the high school prom/formal, plans for the 18th birthday, and the whole first year of university… The list goes on.

For me, one year ago today, I would have been working around the clock to complete my final project for my Master of Architecture. I’d be popping Zoloft as I struggled to see the big picture. Design and architecture is never really complete – the mentality is to review, critique, and keep coming back to re-imagine how the product could have been done better. I often make the mistake of implementing this overly critical thinking in my everyday life. Like fibre, self-criticism is helpful in small doses, but can wreak havoc if you go overboard.

Even the distant past echoes reminders of mistakes not to be repeated in the future. Ten years ago today, I would be living in a shed, which was an upgrade from living in the caravan while dad built the new family home. There was no-way I wanted to invite friends over to my place then, so I killed countless hours playing pointless games on the computer, alone – a bad habit that continues to plague me. My present self regrets not getting over the reality of the environment in which I was living, so that friendships could flourish and new adventures could be found.
·         Preaching to myself – even living in a basement the size of a shoe-box shouldn't inhibit one from practicing hospitality. Or at least trying.

So anyhow, where is all this going? Well, looking backward can have some benefits (as described above) but it only brings us to the present. If you project forward to the future and make decisions now that lead to the kind of life you wish to have, then the possibility for regret is minimized while the opportunity to become who you wish to be is maximized.

A popular North American preacher once said, “Define your life forward, then live it backward.”

If you take the steps to reach who you wish to be, and providing you follow through on these good intentions with integrity, perhaps then – even if things don’t go the way you hoped or planned – you can be the person you are today with few regrets*.





*Just don’t forget to constantly challenge yourself on what’s truly most important.


Thursday, October 10, 2013

Reset Button



While I don't consider myself a Maurice Moss*, I've always been aware that the 'reset' button is an option - generally the final option - when a device isn't working the way it's supposed to work.

Time and time again we hit a metaphorical reset button in regard to our attitudes, relationships, issues of forgiveness, vocation aspirations, and the list goes on. I've just hit it on this much neglected, poor excuse of a blog (perhaps I'll even share it, this time around!).

As I approach 25, and in the light of available time on my hands, I was reminded of the enjoyment I find in writing. I figured it was time to re-set my focus on things I value and find enjoyable, despite another birthday marking yet another year in which I wonder how 'productive' I've actually been.

I'm aware that like me, many career-less, single people my age fear that they've been 'left behind' or have missed something thus far. In these times, I'd suggest hitting the reset button - you haven't been left behind. Take action and do what you enjoy.




Have you tried turning it off and on again?


*I would have also mentioned 'Roy Trenneman' here, but I feel like I share some (unfortunate) similarities to that character...

Monday, January 9, 2012

Song of the Week 2012:

As per 2011 and 2010, I'll continue in my attempt to choose one good (preferably new-to-me) song per week as the 'song of the week'.

Feb 05:
Jan 29: The Day - Moby
Jan 22: L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N - Noah & The Whale
Jan 15: Every Teardrop is a Waterfall - Coldplay
Jan 08: Ain't No Doubt - Jimmy Nail (Old school 1992! Popped up on my playlist...)
Jan 01: Ghost on the Dance Floor - Blink 182

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Quickie.

I wonder if Christians (myself included) just say that it’s all good to be weathy and enjoy all of God’s generosity because we’re too afraid and too weak to live much more simply. Where is the line of necessity and luxury when there are always people around us (and not so close to us) in need? We know they’re there.

Sure, it’s all about where your heart is at and who (or what) you’re really serving, but if we truly knew God as our provider, wouldn’t we trust Him to provide all our needs – after we’ve given away all that we possibly can to others?

For example... We may argue that we are thankful and blessed by God to have a nice car that can transport a family of five, but could we be equally as thankful to downgrade to an older car that can transport a family of five, while helping people with the monetary difference and also trusting God that the cheaper car will be just as safe (and as economical etc) as the first car?
This is possibly a bad example... but you get the idea... Translate it into clothes instead!

Is a personal holiday in which I will enjoy God’s creation justifiable while I know there are others in need and who could use my holiday money?!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

It's 17, 18, 19, routine...

Here at 22 it's probably not the same old me. Maybe a little.


I noticed a friend’s Facebook status in the early hours of yesterday morning. She talked about the dullness of routine, how life is hard and how there’s never enough money to make life easy and stress-free (paraphrase).


With as much insight and wisdom one can have at nearly 2am, we dialogued... but it got me thinking about my own routine. It got me thinking about the whole reason why I thought it’d be a good idea to throw some thoughts up on a blog now and then.



Time is valuable. Each day is valuable. Are we spending our time wisely, or getting lost in the mundaneness of routine?



Routine seems to be something that we all must go through to reach a certain goal or arrive at a certain place that we hope and aspire to be.

For me personally, going through University has made me question myself time and time again – is this what I want to do? Is this what I want to be doing with my life? So often, though... I forget that I am doing something in and during the journey to the ‘this’ that I so often wonder about.

So often, I place myself at the forefront of the question. In the times that I’m reminded of who I’ve given my life to, and I ask ‘is this what God wants me to do?’, I often arrive at the same conclusion. I don’t really know.

Regardless, I’m on a journey, and I’m at least asking the question – and I like to think that both of those things are a good sign. The journey part, though, falls under the ‘routine’ category.

Each day is valuable. Time is valuable. What would it look like if I separated each day from ‘just routine’?

The truth is we all often find ourselves living in some form of routine. The question I ask, is how are we doing our best to enjoy it?


Time is valuable. Each day is valuable.



Thoughts? Questions? Comments?